Monday, August 6, 2007

Weekend Update

Last Wednesday, August 1 happened to be my "3 year anniversary" of coming out to my parents.

It really is hard to believe that it was that long ago and that they're still jackass's about it.  Oh well, screw them.

In other news....some what of a low key weekend . . .  Went to the gym on Saturday, chilled a lot and then went to dinner with Foxy and Maxi . . . Maggianos!  Wicked good!  And well then it was time so do a little pre-gaming at my place and head to Avalon.

Avalon was actually a lot of fun.  The music was pretty good.  *sigh* fun times lol

So, I'm not gonna lie, I feel embarrassed about the other night.  I'm embarrassed that I told this guy I liked him.  I know I shouldn't be but I am for some strange reason.  I mean I can't say I've done that a lot.  Actually, think I never have.  Maybe that's why . . . feels weird.  A huge part of me is like "please don't do that again . . . keep your mouth shut".  But I know that's probably my "inner self" being scared and stupid and shit.

That stuff is wicked complicated.  Watching everyone else over the years made it look so easy I guess.  

Ok, time for a snack with Maxi pad.  Peace


bicoastalhottie said...

Don't forget what we talked about!!!

Rob said...

this must have been right before we went to BHOP to cure our anxiety lol.

I think what you did was very brave. I think you totally put yourself out there and now you made your feelings clear. What he chooses to do with that is his choice now, whether you feel it's good or bad etc. I'm sure he feels his decisions are what are best for him, but that's neither here nor there.

And, don't look at other people thinking that they make it look easy. I've done what you did many times, and it's pretty terrifying EVERY time. You have to work up a lot of nerve to do it. I think it was a big step for you. I love you.